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The tension in this house just went from 4 to 1,000.

Wed, 08 May 2013 18:04:29 -0600

The tension in this house just went from 4 to 1,000.

It had been sunny and warm since we got here 2 weeks ago and...

Wed, 01 May 2013 17:44:56 -0600

It had been sunny and warm since we got here 2 weeks ago and then boom, random snow. Colorado is just as bad as Utah weather wise.

I didn't think it would hit me this hard

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 21:47:08 -0600

The depression is starting to sink in. My dad is missing a certain level of sensitivity. And he’s trying to push me into going to the church he’s going to go to with my aunt and uncle. His thing with the church I found is the distance. But the thing is it’s the same amount of distance as my aunt and uncle’s church. And we live in Security, which is like its own little town. You have to travel into Colorado Springs to do anything interesting. I just don’t see what the big deal is. I don’t really have the urge to cry all the time but I do have my moments where I feel like I’m going to break down. Yesterday wasn’t too bad, kind of nice actually. We spent the day at my aunt and uncle’s. I got to see my cousin and meet her kids. But my grandma is starting to complain more. So yeah…that’s always fun… We were finally able to put in a set of drawers in the room so my mom and I aren’t having to dig through suitcases for our clothes. It’s just tough to live in a house where nothing is your own.

I just want to cry all the time.

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 12:03:51 -0600

I just want to cry all the time.

Changes

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 16:57:00 -0600

Changes can have a funny effect on people. It can make you do things you never would have thought of doing. Like with me. For months, before the move to Colorado got dropped on me, I was seriously considering going vegan. When I got the news, I went in the opposite direction. After being vegetarian for 6 1/2 years I ate meat. Then afterwards I felt extremely bad and immediately went back to vegetarian. We got into Colorado Saturday night, got settled some (a LOT of our stuff is still crowding the room my mom and I share at night), and came to the revelation that even more stuff got left behind in Utah. Including the free modem we got, keyboard, mouse, and speakers for the computer. Anyway, yesterday I started the switch to vegan. Not going completely vegan off the bat though, I had 3 blocks of a Hershey’s bar my dad had gotten me in an effort to make me feel better and I have a loaf of bread to finish. Been SO tired too. Not nearly as hungry as I thought I would be and my body has been…well…let’s just say it’s detoxing. I think it’ll be a while before I consider myself vegan though. I’m still using some products that are, at least, vegetarian friendly. But one thing at time. I’ll make the switch in personal care products eventually.

On an unrelated note I’m having a bit of trouble adjusting to Colorado. Not that there’s anything wrong with the state, I just really miss Utah. I’m completely turned around as far as driving goes since the mountains are on the opposite side and the roads are a bit different. But I have internet now, got all that computer stuff replaced, and slowly making room in this little pink house we’re living in. Just trying to make this a positive experience, a chance to start over. And not a chance to slip into a depression.

And one more thing, other than a health food store is there any place to buy Dr. Bronner’s soap in Colorado Springs? I haven’t had any luck so I’ll probably have to end up ordering some.

This weekend when I move out to Colorado I’m also going to be transitioning to a vegan diet....

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 14:17:02 -0600

This weekend when I move out to Colorado I’m also going to be transitioning to a vegan diet. Getting real tired of the headaches and the very bad facial flushing whenever I have dairy. Any tips going from vegetarian to vegan?

One of the things I love about myself

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 22:21:04 -0600

I panic and get extreme anxiety over things that haven’t happened yet. Or may never happen. Seriously, I’m a mess.

prochoicegeneration: Best post

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 14:49:23 -0600

prochoicegeneration:

Best post

Karl Urban - Priest Best part of that movie. Not nearly...

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 12:06:08 -0600

Karl Urban - Priest

Best part of that movie. Not nearly enough of him in it.

I will be okay

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 10:22:38 -0600

Just have to keep telling myself that, I will be okay. My mom and I are so much alike. Neither one of us handles change that well. It’s scary as hell. And as much as I’m trying to dig my heels in and keep my usual routine of staying in, deep down I think Colorado might be good for me. *MIGHT* I’m keeping an open mind. Colorado Springs is bigger than Ogden so I’m sure there are more things to do and more opportunities. Oh boy, I WILL be okay.

I’m loving this tumblr app for iPhone. There wasn’t a decent one for android and I had...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 20:36:04 -0600

I’m loving this tumblr app for iPhone. There wasn’t a decent one for android and I had to use the mobile site. I’m also thinking of changing my tumblr name to adventure time in Colorado :-P

Hey, moving is hard. I wanted to give you some encouragement if at all possible because I've moved a lot! Moving is painful and it will never not be painful, recovery time is completely acceptable. You don't have to push yourself immediately, and if you wait until you're less upset it will be easier for you to be fully involved in social situations. I hope your Church search goes well. :)

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 19:22:10 -0600

Thanks for the kind words :) I’m starting to feel better about the situation. And I agree, once I get settled it’ll be easier for me.

I'm starting to panic

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 22:23:57 -0600

You know that saying “get out of your comfort zone”? I am, quite literally, being taken out of my comfort zone. And it’s starting to terrify me a little bit. We can’t afford to stay in the place we’re at in Utah so we’re moving to Colorado in 2 weeks. I just found out about it this morning. I’m REALLY trying to look at it as an opportunity to start over so I’m trying very hard not to retreat and lock myself away even further. It’s hard though. There’s not enough room at my grandma’s so my mom and I will be there with her while my dad will stay with my aunt. And my mom and I will be sharing a room. Won’t be too bad I suppose. I’ll mostly have the room to myself during the day, still get computer and TV in there so at least I’ll have some alone time. Just the idea of moving out of the place where I was born and raised makes me unbelievably sad. I even went on google today and looked for churches and such. Places where I could get out a meet people. I even contacted one and heard back from them today. They’re about 30 minutes away though which could be problematic. I’m proud of myself that I’m at least making an effort to turn things around this time. ‘Cause honestly I’m getting too old for this shit.

Karl Urban movie fest this weekend

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 22:37:23 -0600

Yes, I’m very happy about this. Priest, Dredd, Ghost Ship, and Star Trek. And I maaaaay even feel like sitting through Lord of the Rings.

When you see someone on tumblr bashing an actor or series you’re obsessing over you just want to...

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 00:05:00 -0600

When you see someone on tumblr bashing an actor or series you’re obsessing over you just want to punch them in the face.

niisku: the amount of sass in this screencap is overwhelming

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 15:17:50 -0600

niisku:

the amount of sass in this screencap is overwhelming

Does anyone else think Jareth from Labyrinth looks like an emo Vulcan?

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 22:25:15 -0600

Does anyone else think Jareth from Labyrinth looks like an emo Vulcan?

I've been watching Star Trek a lot lately

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 00:06:15 -0600

Mainly because I like seeing Karl Urban. Although I do enjoy the movie. But seriously, Karl Urban. Then I remembered I had Ghost Ship, a movie he was also in, and I’ve been watching that a lot lately. And the one thing I keep coming back to? His eyebrows. I know, weird thing to notice. But seriously this man has like the most perfect eyebrows ever. They’re perfectly arched, giving him these perfect expressions on his perfect face. Now I need to go watch him as a blonde in Lord of the Rings.

Most girls go nuts for Chris Hemsworth as Thor. Nuh-uh, I’d rather have him as George Kirk...

Thu, 14 Mar 2013 00:30:16 -0600

Most girls go nuts for Chris Hemsworth as Thor. Nuh-uh, I’d rather have him as George Kirk from Star Trek.

Photo

Wed, 06 Mar 2013 17:06:36 -0700