For reasons I don’t understand I’ve had that song stuck in my head from the Rainbow Brite and the Star Stealer movie stuck in my head. For kicks I decided to see which Rainbow Brite character I am. Green’s my favorite color, Lala Orange has always been my favorite color kid so I was interested. I got Shy Violet (who I’ve always liked as well). Which really makes a lot of sense, but the results also said I wasn’t fun. Pffft! I’m fun! At least when I’m not having social anxiety I am =0P Which Rainbow Brite character are YOU?
I rented The Dark Knight Rises along with the disc of Game Of Thrones. I rented these before I knew we were getting a free preview of HBO. So I was pleasantly surprised to get to see an additional episode of Game Of Thrones. Getting the first season for my birthday :) Anyway, I’ve been watching TDKR on DVD and HBO over and over again because I don’t think I’ve been this attracted to Joseph Gordon-Levitt since 3rd Rock From The Sun. Aaaand JJ’s husband has been living a double life as one of Bane’s henchmen.
I also rented Apollo 18 because we got a free rental and it was horrible.
Just finished the disc I rented and….I NEED MORE!
I was able to find Game of Thrones season 2 disc 2 at blockbuster. I’m really excited. At least now I can see how much I like it before getting season 1.
The tension in this house just went from 4 to 1,000.
The depression is starting to sink in. My dad is missing a certain level of sensitivity. And he’s trying to push me into going to the church he’s going to go to with my aunt and uncle. His thing with the church I found is the distance. But the thing is it’s the same amount of distance as my aunt and uncle’s church. And we live in Security, which is like its own little town. You have to travel into Colorado Springs to do anything interesting. I just don’t see what the big deal is. I don’t really have the urge to cry all the time but I do have my moments where I feel like I’m going to break down. Yesterday wasn’t too bad, kind of nice actually. We spent the day at my aunt and uncle’s. I got to see my cousin and meet her kids. But my grandma is starting to complain more. So yeah…that’s always fun… We were finally able to put in a set of drawers in the room so my mom and I aren’t having to dig through suitcases for our clothes. It’s just tough to live in a house where nothing is your own.
I just want to cry all the time.
Changes can have a funny effect on people. It can make you do things you never would have thought of doing. Like with me. For months, before the move to Colorado got dropped on me, I was seriously considering going vegan. When I got the news, I went in the opposite direction. After being vegetarian for 6 1/2 years I ate meat. Then afterwards I felt extremely bad and immediately went back to vegetarian. We got into Colorado Saturday night, got settled some (a LOT of our stuff is still crowding the room my mom and I share at night), and came to the revelation that even more stuff got left behind in Utah. Including the free modem we got, keyboard, mouse, and speakers for the computer. Anyway, yesterday I started the switch to vegan. Not going completely vegan off the bat though, I had 3 blocks of a Hershey’s bar my dad had gotten me in an effort to make me feel better and I have a loaf of bread to finish. Been SO tired too. Not nearly as hungry as I thought I would be and my body has been…well…let’s just say it’s detoxing. I think it’ll be a while before I consider myself vegan though. I’m still using some products that are, at least, vegetarian friendly. But one thing at time. I’ll make the switch in personal care products eventually.
On an unrelated note I’m having a bit of trouble adjusting to Colorado. Not that there’s anything wrong with the state, I just really miss Utah. I’m completely turned around as far as driving goes since the mountains are on the opposite side and the roads are a bit different. But I have internet now, got all that computer stuff replaced, and slowly making room in this little pink house we’re living in. Just trying to make this a positive experience, a chance to start over. And not a chance to slip into a depression.
And one more thing, other than a health food store is there any place to buy Dr. Bronner’s soap in Colorado Springs? I haven’t had any luck so I’ll probably have to end up ordering some.
This weekend when I move out to Colorado I’m also going to be transitioning to a vegan diet. Getting real tired of the headaches and the very bad facial flushing whenever I have dairy. Any tips going from vegetarian to vegan?
I panic and get extreme anxiety over things that haven’t happened yet. Or may never happen. Seriously, I’m a mess.
Just have to keep telling myself that, I will be okay. My mom and I are so much alike. Neither one of us handles change that well. It’s scary as hell. And as much as I’m trying to dig my heels in and keep my usual routine of staying in, deep down I think Colorado might be good for me. *MIGHT* I’m keeping an open mind. Colorado Springs is bigger than Ogden so I’m sure there are more things to do and more opportunities. Oh boy, I WILL be okay.